This week in our Tuesday house group, we reflected on Isaiah 49 and 50 by contemplating on it, and then proceeding to write a poem. Writing poetry helps us think, articulate, and conjure our reflections in a way that is free, creative, and expressive.
What you see here is our thoughts, put on paper, expressed through words, deeply personal and uninhibited. For that reason, we chose to make each one anonymous. They are, in essence, meditations of the heart.
Sometimes, I wake up with regret to start my day
sometimes, I start and pray for a hopeful day
asking God to help me go through the motions.
I think alone
about what is to come
or analyze what went wrong.
Could I have said something more
so they could’ve known how I felt?
I bottle it up inside and
I know how I feel, but do they?
If you could only understand
how I want to be reached out to.
Saved, loved, accepted.
The Lord has forsaken me.
I’ll not forget you!
In pain and torment I cried out
and in the silence, came the dreadful doubt
to my dismay, I saw myself waste away
the consequence of a payment I couldn’t pay
And yet like a mother you came to me
broke the chains and set me free
to run and conquer and bring the light
the love of God that sets everything right.
There are happy times.
Times of being loved, of comfort
of being secure and being protected.
Times of belonging.
I can do anything, be anybody
I have infinite amounts of enthusiasm and
Times of promise.
There are sad times.
Times of trouble, of despair,
of being hurt and being
Times of confusion.
I fail miserably, shout out loud!
I despise my circumstance and
lose faith, mostly in myself.
Times of darkness.
After every dusk, there is dawn.
It happens every time
Flowers spring from the ground
at the first sign of winter’s deadlock easing.
It is for sure.
Happy and sad, time moves forward
and I am heading into morning.
I wonder how a mother or father cannot love
the child they bear?
I wonder why a child feels like he
does not have a purpose?
Do they not realize he is a miracle?
Does he not realize purpose was given
to him before he was born?
Though a mother and father may forget,
God will not forget those hebrought
into this world.
To you who are hopeless,
put your hope in the Lord and He
will not disappoint.
Do not wallow in your darkness and
wonder where God is. God is light.
And while you cannot control where the light
comes from, you can control how
much light comes in.
Let it in, then you
will find purpose.
Ravaged, ruined, rejected
Damaged, distraught, dejected
Battered, bruised, bereft of comfort
A pillow, a blanket, a warm embrace
Here, there is none in the dark, this lonely one
Pain, He becomes; His frame, overrun; His life to be unspun
No pillow, no blanket, no warm embrace in this empty, lonesome space
To look death in the face, and overcome
In quiet strength and grace
Deep within a trace
To make sparks
I work hard and gain nothing from the earth,
The Lord is my reward, He shows me what is of worth,
Being a blessing to other Christians is noble indeed,
But God calls us to bless non-believers and plant the seed,
Has your mother forgotten you? Have you forgotten her?
God will never forget you for his love always endures,
If anyone messes with you they mess with the Lord,
And no one wants to mess with the Lord,
Do not think God is too weak for He will show you his strength,
Walk in the dark and do not fear,
Trust in God, He is always near.